And so the lion fell in love with the lamb...

Well, I'm laid off. Friday was my last day. I have to call in the 14th of January to see if I can come back. The whole thing really isn't bothering me as much as it should be. For example the fact that my roommate, my boyfriend, and I are all laid off. Or that unemployment is slowly but surely running out. Yeah. I'm not too concerned, and I don't know if that's because of the depression or what, but I just don't give a fuck. Haha.

Maybe I'll go back to the Arb and beg for a job.

I can't believe Christmas is only a few days away. It's insane how quickly this year has gone. And next month, I'll be the big 21! I'm excited. I'm sure for the first couple days it'll be awesome, but after that, it's just not a big deal anymore. Then what do I have to look forward to? 25? Ooo, my insurance drops I think... Not much else to be excited about after 21.

Well, it's 5am, I guess I can start getting used to sleeping like a normal person again. When you're used to working at this time, it's really hard to fall asleep.

Hope everyone has a great Christmas and New Years! Peace!

I think I ate too much. My belly hurts. But it was so worth it. I ate lots of stuffing mostly, turkey, mashed taters, and of course punkin pie. It's 1:30 in the morning, and I'm going shopping in about 4 hours. I'm not one for crowds, so I don't know what I got myself into by agreeing to go shopping. Hopefully I don't break any old ladies hips and get arrested. That would be bad. I know, for sure, that I'm going to Hot Topic. They're having a sale on band shirts, buy one get one half I think, so that's cool. Okay, I'm going to find some left overs. Hope everybody had a good holiday.

Hopefully I'll be in boardman tomorrow watching Twilight. If you haven't read the series, you should. Amazing book. And, hopefully the movie will be just as good.

new icon.

it owns all of your icons. XD

I just have to say that my life is taking a turn for the better. We've finally found an apartment, thank fucking god for that. Dan is buying me a ring. *geehee* It's a silver claddagh with a garnet, my birth stone. It's really pretty, and i can't wait till it gets here so i can put it on and stare at it all day. I've always wanted a claddagh, and now i'm finally getting one from someone who i really love and want to be with for the rest of my life. We've already discussed possibly having an irish style wedding, and i get more and more giddy everytime we talk about it. It would be perfect.
anyways... enough about that...

I'm losing more weight, which makes me feel so much better about myself. so now instead of having no self esteem, i have a pinch of salt worth. =D
I'd love to hang out with some of my old friends, mostly the old arrrrbys crew. i miss a lot of them, even the ones that dont work there anymore. I better get a move on before i get slammed with overtime at Ventra.

So, I know a few of you arbys folk read this silly thing, we need to meet up and have lunch on a weekend, or dinner on a week day, i get off work at 3.
Either leave me a comment here if you'd like, or call/text my cell (330)277-7726.


peace.

Things are getting better slowly, and that makes me very relieved. The last couple of weeks have been stressful and overwhelming, but I've managed to make it through, and for that, I'm very proud of myself. I really am becoming a much stronger and stable person, unlike the old me, who I really was starting to hate. I've gotten myself on depression medicine, I'm starting to eat healthier and starting to exercise. (I started last Monday and have already lost 9 pounds, GO ME!)

Dan and I still have our issues, but things are looking better there too. We have Friday off this week, and we're going to look at, hopefully, our new apartment. I'm really excited and I really hope this is the one. The lady that I talked to on the phone seemed very nice and from what I've heard, the apartments are very nice too.

Work is a fucking mess. The company officially changed hands two weeks ago. So now instead of working for Blackhawk Automotive Plastics, I now work for Ventra Salem LLC. The new company seems awesome; great insurance, a possible pay raise, and a nicer more understanding set of supervisors. The messy part is because of the whole GM layoff bullshit. It doesn't make any sense to me, if only 20% of the jobs in our shop are GM, then why the fuck are we getting laid off? It's also bullshit because everytime something happens, 50 fucking million rumors get spread, and no one knows whats going on because our management doesn't have the brains to let us know.
But anyways, if they want to lay off, so be it, I will gladly sit on my ass and collect unemployment. XD

I applied for a part time job at Angels for Animals, working as a Vet Assistant. Pays 7 bucks an hour, so it'll be a nice chunk of extra cash coming in. I might need it more than I thought now. haha.

Okay. Well that was a really long post, but I felt the need to rant a little. I don't even know if anyone reads this, but more power to you if you actually have the time to.

Peace.

im depressed. i miss my friends. i want life back to normal. things don't feel right anymore.

I'M BACK!!!

Yes, it's true, im back from the dead. Just got internet hooked up today, and LJ was one of the first places i ran to. I miss this silly little thing.

So. If you care to continue reading, i'm going to ramble a little about my boring useless life. =D

Let's see... I moved out of my mom's house in April of last year and moved in with my now current boyfriend, Dan. Currently we still live with his mom, here in Salem, but we're planning on moving out sometime soon to our own apartment. I currently work at Blackhawk Automotive Plastics, but as you may have heard, they have filed for bankruptcy and may change ownership. But hell, i dont care who i work for as long as i get my pay check.
As for a social life... (cricket chirp). Yeah, i dont have one. Not that i really had one before, but eh. I try to keep in touch with a few of the people that i knew, like people from the arb, but thats about it. i've lost contact with pretty much everyone from school (not a big loss). and, i have made quite a few friends at work, but i just changed shifts a few months ago. so instead of being on afternoons, with all my friends, im now on dayshift, with all the old people.

Yeah, thats my life in a nutshell. Boring. Im sorry if you read this and now feel a little bit stupider. my bad. anyways here's some pictures, just incase you're going through some withdrawls of ME! :)


( a picture says 1000 words... or more. )


okay. i guess thats enough. if you missed me, comment me, i'd love to hear from you all again. new cell #, 330 277 7726. peace.

i know what all of you are thinking.
i know i dont update nearly enough... so here goes.

i got a new job. i have sucessfully completed a week and a day there.
i work at blackhawk, in salem, making loovers {air conditioning vents).
oh yes, it is so exciting. not.

i miss the people at the arb.
but, i have found some people at blackhawk that remind me of some of them.
others, can never be replaced, sadly.

so harvy = brenda.
and this kid tod = dave igo.
oh and my lead foreman, jeanne good = kimmy times 10. yeah, it's pretty bad.
and i almost forgot, my other foreman, debbie = saaaaaaaaaaandy calvin!

but, i like it, so yeah.
basically, i get paid good to do pretty much nothing.

alright, so thats how it be. leave me comments fo real.

new icon.
dave shook, you'll like it.
hah.

not much is new, working a lot.
car is broke again, still.

so.
its been about two weeks since my last cigarette, and i feel pretty good.
i have a cold.
my sunburn from ozzfest is gone and i have a nice tan.
i cant stop listening to country music.
i have a crush, and he likes me back (thats a first).
i hate work, as always.
im tired and im going to bed.
thats my life... anything exciting in yours?


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check this shit out.
warning. if you dont like looking at wieners, do not click the link below.

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ok. because i dont update this nearly enough. here goes nothing.

i graduate on sunday. thats right, im out of canfield and done with all the stupid shitheads there. i cant wait.
i have a lot to look forward to. work. lol.
im going to a few concerts in the near future.

my graduation party is the 24th. you better be there. its at my house, so.
bonfire at night, come whenever you want. starts at 1.
k thats it.

bye.

so uhm, yeah, my car is beautiful.
i pretty much love it.
today was scary, it wouldnt start.
so i went to work upset. beacause this is my first car, it made me worried.
i called my mom at 10, and low and behold, the car did start.
still not sure whats wrong with it.
so i drove it home, listening to atreyu.
all is well.
k guys.
thats it.
bye.



oh btw, im looking for someone who's good at fixing/installing.
i need two back speakers hooked back up.
i think they were just disconnected.
so yeah. if you know what you're doing, then call me.

yay! i got a car! its a 1996 saturn sc2. its red and had a black interior. it has a cd player, and its getting detailed for saturday when i pick it up! im so happy, finally i'll have a car. here's a pic of the same model, mine doesnt look this nice and mine doesnt have a moonroof, but it gives you an idea.

people these days...

suck.

im so sick of worrying about being peoples friends, and trying to make plans with them. only to have them ignore any and all attepmts to contact them.

and im sick of wanting things that i'll never get. i want to get away from life for awhile. im not ready to give up, and i know its going to be the hardest thing to get though without a lot of pain.

something done today by someone i think of as a friend hurt me, even though it was something stupid, it still pretty much hurt. so thanks for that one.

looks like this week is going to be another of those depressing, moody, and irrational ones.

i dont know how to close this so...


.

and now, i fucking hate arby melts, chicken bacon swisses, and roast beef subs.
fuck arbys, and fuck stupid people who order a sandwich and then bitch about it, and want another one. they pay the price. a special mix of saliva with their honey mustard. grrrr.

i hate arby melts.

i felt like updating, even though i really dont have anything to write about.

im finally beginning to realize that im a senior. it hit me today, i have a little more than a month to go, and thats relieving, but kind of scary. now i just have the rest of my life to screw up.

but other than that.. im exicted to graduate.

plus, spring break is in a few days.

i dont have a clue what to write, so there you go. im such a fasinating person! yeah. go me.

so work is poo poo. the only advantage i see to it is keeping my mind off issues at hand. josh is back in town for a week, and still going strong to get me back. im smarter than i was, and i know not to go back to that. i dont understand why he tries so hard to win me back. the whole "i've changed" speach doesnt work anymore. im sick and tired of him and his stupid games. but i think just maybe he's begining to realize that nothing he says is going to change things. atleast i hope so.

so again, i end my bickering.

i cant stop listening to two bands. 30 seconds to mars and the red jumpsuit apparatus.
amazing.

peace loves.